I just have to say, time has been flying by for the beginning of this deployment! I don't want to jinx it but seriously I can't believe it. My kids have kept me busy and distracted and it's great.
I thought staying home would make time drag but I love it. Extra time with my kids, making little crafts and reading books. The little things are great and can't forget trying to capture all the special moments for Daddy. That is a hard thing to do because everything seems special and I just keep taking pictures lol.
The hardest thing on me has prob been my 2 year old and how she has taken the deployment. She doesn't know what is going on, but Daddy is not here and she asks questions, shows her emotions and has had a lot of tantrums. I guess I can't blame her, if I could I would just stop everything and scream and cry with the way I feel sometimes!
It's been a challenge and I know it's going to continue to be, I am ready for it! I know it will all be worth it when my Soldier is back in my arms and playing with the kids in the yard! Can't wait! Next Summer will be here before we know it! Until then...staying strong and growing stronger!
Saturday, August 11, 2012
Back to blogging
Well I haven't been so good at keeping this blog up to date. I should prob have this as my vent system. Asmany of you know we had scare on Tuesday with my 3month old. We called911and we got taken to the er. They then transferred us to a larger hospital to get better care, thinking he had an abstracted bowl. After being in hospitals all day, the doctor diagnosed him with... The stomach flu! Really, after all that! It was a long day and yes he was sick but come on people! Scared the crap out of me!
Plus getting ahold of zack was tough and stressful
We are all feeling better now, which is great! Now that we got that out our systems nothing shall go wrong for the rest of this deployment right lol
But yea that's what has been going on for big news. Keeping track of the kids and talking here and there to zack. Trying to stay as busy as we can. Plans to go to the fair that is coming up, and just making plans on the fly seems to happen more often! That's all for now
Plus getting ahold of zack was tough and stressful
We are all feeling better now, which is great! Now that we got that out our systems nothing shall go wrong for the rest of this deployment right lol
But yea that's what has been going on for big news. Keeping track of the kids and talking here and there to zack. Trying to stay as busy as we can. Plans to go to the fair that is coming up, and just making plans on the fly seems to happen more often! That's all for now
Monday, July 9, 2012
And July is started
Well I have not blogged for awhile so here it goes. We made it through June, no problem, now just another year and we will be good haha
July 4th was a hot one, my plan was to take Abbey to fireworks and Anders was going to stay home with great grandma. This didn't happen because it was So hot out and Abbey fell asleep before it got dark. we took out the slip and slide, abbeys pool, and alcohol for the adults and it was a lot of fun. Everyone was home, minus Zack, that was the only thing missing. Abbey loved the slip and slide and we all had grass everywhere. It's fun having the family time.
Zack loved seeing the pictures online.soooo potty training, everyone says its so wonderful when your kids decides its time, but Abbey I don't think can decide if she is ready or not. One day she is all for big girl undies and big potty, another day she needs a diaper. I am losing my mind, she has a prize bag to chose from if she goes in the potty , but doesn't seem to work anymore. Any other ideas? Its been a week and she still has accidents and doesn't tell me when she needs to go consistently.
July 4th was a hot one, my plan was to take Abbey to fireworks and Anders was going to stay home with great grandma. This didn't happen because it was So hot out and Abbey fell asleep before it got dark. we took out the slip and slide, abbeys pool, and alcohol for the adults and it was a lot of fun. Everyone was home, minus Zack, that was the only thing missing. Abbey loved the slip and slide and we all had grass everywhere. It's fun having the family time.
Zack loved seeing the pictures online.soooo potty training, everyone says its so wonderful when your kids decides its time, but Abbey I don't think can decide if she is ready or not. One day she is all for big girl undies and big potty, another day she needs a diaper. I am losing my mind, she has a prize bag to chose from if she goes in the potty , but doesn't seem to work anymore. Any other ideas? Its been a week and she still has accidents and doesn't tell me when she needs to go consistently.
Thursday, June 28, 2012
And now the waiting game
Ok so I got my "last" phone call yesterday. I thought I had gotten it on Saturday lol but I guess not.
Being he doesn't have his phone, and his internet time had run out for the month there was a very little chance I would of heard from him again after Saturday. I guess he missed us and wanted to call one last time, he talked to his whole family, minus his sister who had just left for new york that afternoon. We gave him her number so he could call her.
Now, is the time where it is all uncertain on when I'm going to talk to him next, which sucks. I guess I should be used to it but it still gets to me. I don't wanna be a mess, but I probably will, I am going to try and keep extra busy these next couple weeks. I am hoping it won't be over 2 weeks but you never know. It's becoming so much more realistic, and I can only hope that these next 10-11 months will go as fast as the first one did!
Abbey is adjusting ok, I guess when we have skyped with him the last couple times, the video quality was WAY crappy, which sucked but was even worse for Abbey who doesn't understand why "daddy freezes" She was upset when it cut in and out and started to yell at the computer. And of course poor Anders, well he doesn't know whats going on AT ALL, which is probably a good thing. My worse fear about him is for him not to know his Daddy when Zack comes home. He's been so good around Zack's brothers and Dad so hopefully he won't have a problem but I guess I am the only one that ever gets him from his bed at night and I don't want him to be "scared" if Zack comes to do it in a year. I know I know a year away, and who knows what is going to happen. Abbey knows who daddy is and loves skyping I just worry about that.
So, now everytime Abbey asks, is Daddy online, I have to tell her no sweetie he's not. We will have to keep distracted until we get that phone call, which I hope happens so I do'nt have to drive myself insane on the computer ALL day EVERY day! lol. (oh wait I am pretty much online all day) haha jk. I just have to wait and be EXTREMELY happy when I do get that call! ( I better not miss the dang thing!)
So today was DAY 1 of WAITING thats all
Being he doesn't have his phone, and his internet time had run out for the month there was a very little chance I would of heard from him again after Saturday. I guess he missed us and wanted to call one last time, he talked to his whole family, minus his sister who had just left for new york that afternoon. We gave him her number so he could call her.
Now, is the time where it is all uncertain on when I'm going to talk to him next, which sucks. I guess I should be used to it but it still gets to me. I don't wanna be a mess, but I probably will, I am going to try and keep extra busy these next couple weeks. I am hoping it won't be over 2 weeks but you never know. It's becoming so much more realistic, and I can only hope that these next 10-11 months will go as fast as the first one did!
Abbey is adjusting ok, I guess when we have skyped with him the last couple times, the video quality was WAY crappy, which sucked but was even worse for Abbey who doesn't understand why "daddy freezes" She was upset when it cut in and out and started to yell at the computer. And of course poor Anders, well he doesn't know whats going on AT ALL, which is probably a good thing. My worse fear about him is for him not to know his Daddy when Zack comes home. He's been so good around Zack's brothers and Dad so hopefully he won't have a problem but I guess I am the only one that ever gets him from his bed at night and I don't want him to be "scared" if Zack comes to do it in a year. I know I know a year away, and who knows what is going to happen. Abbey knows who daddy is and loves skyping I just worry about that.
So, now everytime Abbey asks, is Daddy online, I have to tell her no sweetie he's not. We will have to keep distracted until we get that phone call, which I hope happens so I do'nt have to drive myself insane on the computer ALL day EVERY day! lol. (oh wait I am pretty much online all day) haha jk. I just have to wait and be EXTREMELY happy when I do get that call! ( I better not miss the dang thing!)
So today was DAY 1 of WAITING thats all
Monday, June 4, 2012
Running, Running thats what we do
GOOD NEWS EVERYONE! I started my long needed adventure back to the gym this morning! haha. It was actually a lot better than I expected, and yes I say that now, tomorrow morning may not be that great. I am planning on going Monday, Wednesday and Friday each week. I am going to try my hardest to keep this a routine because I need to lose the weight and plus why not do something and my soldier :-) That started my day with RUNNING.
Back to the house I continued running, chasing my 2 year old around trying to get clothes on. Then we packed up the car and headed to buy something for Zack's gun to send to him. Pretty funny to see the reaction of the guy working at the gun shop when I stumbled in with a 2 year old and a infant in a carseat. His face was priceless. He said "Is there something I can...help you with?" I immediatly laughed and said actually yes. I told him what I needed and he directed me to it. He showed me a few ranging from $17 to $70. (Zack told me 20-30 range) he was doing such a great job telling me all the details about the item I didnt want to interupt, even though I had made up my mind as soon as I saw the $17 one. After his speal I grabbed the "cheap" one and purchased it. He then walked me over to the door and opened it for me saying "you have your hands full" REALLY? haha
Oh and a side note, I asked if they ahd Military Discount because well I always do and his response was " we don't because we treat everyone equally" What the heck, he could of just said no but honestly that made it sound like, well a little rude to me. Our Soldiers are NOT equal to everyone else they are risking their lives and fighting for our country, NOT EVERYONE DOES THAT!
Then off to the office to get a copy of orders and some other paperwork. We got there and it was, well lunch breatk I figured I would wait around and feed Anders anyway. It was 45 minutes and they still didn't come back so I left because Abbey was getting restless and wanted to swim of course because the waterpark was on the other side of the glass window we were sitting by haha.
Then the LONG BORING drive home. Abbey fell asleep, Anders fell asleep, all I wanted to do was FALL ASLEEP
Oh but wait, I forgot I needed to go to Walmart, so to Walmart I go. Got some shopping done and picked up some food. Then the drive home
Now I'm sitting at home, doing some enrollment for school, blogging obviously and chasing my child around as well. I'm going to sleep good tonight!
If Anders doesn't keep me up haha oh well gotta stay busy to make this deployment go as fast as it can!
Back to the house I continued running, chasing my 2 year old around trying to get clothes on. Then we packed up the car and headed to buy something for Zack's gun to send to him. Pretty funny to see the reaction of the guy working at the gun shop when I stumbled in with a 2 year old and a infant in a carseat. His face was priceless. He said "Is there something I can...help you with?" I immediatly laughed and said actually yes. I told him what I needed and he directed me to it. He showed me a few ranging from $17 to $70. (Zack told me 20-30 range) he was doing such a great job telling me all the details about the item I didnt want to interupt, even though I had made up my mind as soon as I saw the $17 one. After his speal I grabbed the "cheap" one and purchased it. He then walked me over to the door and opened it for me saying "you have your hands full" REALLY? haha
Oh and a side note, I asked if they ahd Military Discount because well I always do and his response was " we don't because we treat everyone equally" What the heck, he could of just said no but honestly that made it sound like, well a little rude to me. Our Soldiers are NOT equal to everyone else they are risking their lives and fighting for our country, NOT EVERYONE DOES THAT!
Then off to the office to get a copy of orders and some other paperwork. We got there and it was, well lunch breatk I figured I would wait around and feed Anders anyway. It was 45 minutes and they still didn't come back so I left because Abbey was getting restless and wanted to swim of course because the waterpark was on the other side of the glass window we were sitting by haha.
Then the LONG BORING drive home. Abbey fell asleep, Anders fell asleep, all I wanted to do was FALL ASLEEP
Oh but wait, I forgot I needed to go to Walmart, so to Walmart I go. Got some shopping done and picked up some food. Then the drive home
Now I'm sitting at home, doing some enrollment for school, blogging obviously and chasing my child around as well. I'm going to sleep good tonight!
If Anders doesn't keep me up haha oh well gotta stay busy to make this deployment go as fast as it can!
Saturday, June 2, 2012
One more day down!
well today, hmmm where to start. I guess start at the beginning.
Abbey slept in until about 830pm and thats crazy! I had to wake up and check on her when I was feeding Anders at 7am. When she woke up the first thing out of her mouth was "Cereal Mom", so of course grabbed a box of life and not thinking brought it back to my bed. I had Life EVERYWHERE! I was so tired, that I layed back down and must of dozed off. woke up to that. GREAT. After cleaning that mess up, we crawled out of bed.
Anders was still sleeping so I asked Abbey what she wanted to wear for the day and of course she said "JAMMIES" After about 3 minutes of convincing her that jammies were not in the clothing attire for the day she decided on a sundress. I guess thats not too much a struggle but then, getting ready to leave the house now thats been a challenge for me lately. I pack the diaper bag, go in the other room to get Anders dressed and Abbey unpacks the diaper bag" helping " of course. She tells me that I forgot to put something in...everytime it's something different that I forgot, today it was Anders diapers which were spread out on the floor of the living room.
Finally getting that all in the bag, and Anders dressed it's time to head out the door. Abbey has the touch the car routine down, so when I'm getting Anders in I can keep an eye on her. Which will have to change now because she attemped to run off today, almost made it to the road. SCARED ME SO MUCH! I guess it's a learning process for all of us, and she's got so much new stuff to figure out.
On a side note, the FRG meeting was a complete success! So many new faces and great support team for our soldiers. It's great to see the willingness of family members to learn and want to help. When they told us that Frgs come alive during a deployment, they were right! Hopefully the mtgs will continue to be busy with people coming to learn and support. I remember when I was new to the group and it was a little overwhelming learning a lot of new things and now through a deployment, a lot of the people I talked with we're of course overwhelmed and didn't know much about what to expect. Hopefully they feel a little relief knowing so many more people are going through the same thing and there is always someone out there to help wether it be a resource that was talked about or just a fellow family member to lend an ear!
Oh and I am forgetting a major part to my night, I TALKED TO MY HUBBY! It was great to hear the little notification on Skype that he was online. I was told Internet may be limited and non accessible for location and training schedule so I wasnt expecting to chitchat for awhile. It's crazy how your heart just beats faster and you get the butterflies in your stomach when you hear from him. It hasn't even been a dang week lol! We has a good talk and his first care package is going out Monday or Tuesday because I have to go get him something for his weapon and not sure if I will find it Monday or not, that's why it may go out Tuesday lol. I already apologized in advance to him if I got the wrong thing haha.
Well it's quite late/early so I better get SOME shut eye before Anders' decides he is hungry again. See you all tomorrow, hopefully!
Abbey slept in until about 830pm and thats crazy! I had to wake up and check on her when I was feeding Anders at 7am. When she woke up the first thing out of her mouth was "Cereal Mom", so of course grabbed a box of life and not thinking brought it back to my bed. I had Life EVERYWHERE! I was so tired, that I layed back down and must of dozed off. woke up to that. GREAT. After cleaning that mess up, we crawled out of bed.
Anders was still sleeping so I asked Abbey what she wanted to wear for the day and of course she said "JAMMIES" After about 3 minutes of convincing her that jammies were not in the clothing attire for the day she decided on a sundress. I guess thats not too much a struggle but then, getting ready to leave the house now thats been a challenge for me lately. I pack the diaper bag, go in the other room to get Anders dressed and Abbey unpacks the diaper bag" helping " of course. She tells me that I forgot to put something in...everytime it's something different that I forgot, today it was Anders diapers which were spread out on the floor of the living room.
Finally getting that all in the bag, and Anders dressed it's time to head out the door. Abbey has the touch the car routine down, so when I'm getting Anders in I can keep an eye on her. Which will have to change now because she attemped to run off today, almost made it to the road. SCARED ME SO MUCH! I guess it's a learning process for all of us, and she's got so much new stuff to figure out.
On a side note, the FRG meeting was a complete success! So many new faces and great support team for our soldiers. It's great to see the willingness of family members to learn and want to help. When they told us that Frgs come alive during a deployment, they were right! Hopefully the mtgs will continue to be busy with people coming to learn and support. I remember when I was new to the group and it was a little overwhelming learning a lot of new things and now through a deployment, a lot of the people I talked with we're of course overwhelmed and didn't know much about what to expect. Hopefully they feel a little relief knowing so many more people are going through the same thing and there is always someone out there to help wether it be a resource that was talked about or just a fellow family member to lend an ear!
Oh and I am forgetting a major part to my night, I TALKED TO MY HUBBY! It was great to hear the little notification on Skype that he was online. I was told Internet may be limited and non accessible for location and training schedule so I wasnt expecting to chitchat for awhile. It's crazy how your heart just beats faster and you get the butterflies in your stomach when you hear from him. It hasn't even been a dang week lol! We has a good talk and his first care package is going out Monday or Tuesday because I have to go get him something for his weapon and not sure if I will find it Monday or not, that's why it may go out Tuesday lol. I already apologized in advance to him if I got the wrong thing haha.
Well it's quite late/early so I better get SOME shut eye before Anders' decides he is hungry again. See you all tomorrow, hopefully!
Friday, June 1, 2012
Let's get it started
Okay so I am new at blogging so bare with me. I figured this would be a way to let my feelings and frustrations all out at the end of each day. Usually it's best to write or talk them out.
This is my first deployment and with two children 2 and under its a little difficult doing it alone. Also it's tough because these are the times so much growth and development occurs and Daddy has to miss it. I am going to do my best to keep track of as much as possible for him but it's still not the same.
It's been almost 5days Since he left and I have not talked to him in over 24 hours. I know I know that is nothing really and it's not just when I have been used to talking to him everyday it's difficult. What makes it more difficult is my two year old already asking when daddy will be coming home! She has a Daddy Doll that I ordered from "hug-a-hero" and it's great. We already had our first daddy to the rescue moment the other morning. She wouldn't let me take her out of bed, it had to be daddy so after begging with her to have mommy help instead I saw the daddy doll laying there and picked it up and told her daddy is right here to help. She came right to me, thank goodness for the daddy doll!
My youngest just turned a month old. It's been tough for my husband to miss most of his first month for pre deployment training but he has put on a tough face and had to face reality which sucks! I have my hands full but am trying to be the best mom I can be even if it's not perfect.
I honestly have cried very little which I don't know if it's a good or bad thing. I keep telling myself it's only a year and our daughters first two years went by super fast! But the thing is it is a long time and where he is and what he is doing is tough to take in. Not knowing when you will hear his voice or see his face is almost unbearable, and then when you do it's not nearly long enough.
Well that's all for tonight I am going to try this out and see if it makes me feel any better.
This is my first deployment and with two children 2 and under its a little difficult doing it alone. Also it's tough because these are the times so much growth and development occurs and Daddy has to miss it. I am going to do my best to keep track of as much as possible for him but it's still not the same.
It's been almost 5days Since he left and I have not talked to him in over 24 hours. I know I know that is nothing really and it's not just when I have been used to talking to him everyday it's difficult. What makes it more difficult is my two year old already asking when daddy will be coming home! She has a Daddy Doll that I ordered from "hug-a-hero" and it's great. We already had our first daddy to the rescue moment the other morning. She wouldn't let me take her out of bed, it had to be daddy so after begging with her to have mommy help instead I saw the daddy doll laying there and picked it up and told her daddy is right here to help. She came right to me, thank goodness for the daddy doll!
My youngest just turned a month old. It's been tough for my husband to miss most of his first month for pre deployment training but he has put on a tough face and had to face reality which sucks! I have my hands full but am trying to be the best mom I can be even if it's not perfect.
I honestly have cried very little which I don't know if it's a good or bad thing. I keep telling myself it's only a year and our daughters first two years went by super fast! But the thing is it is a long time and where he is and what he is doing is tough to take in. Not knowing when you will hear his voice or see his face is almost unbearable, and then when you do it's not nearly long enough.
Well that's all for tonight I am going to try this out and see if it makes me feel any better.
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